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go, root and all.
And when nothing is left to go you will find that a new light has spread on your soil; then laughter will arise out of your being. You have tasted life for the first time... but this is the only way. Life can be tasted only through death!
Jesus says, 'Those who save their life, they will lose, and those who are ready to lose, they will save.' This is the moment he is talking about....
So don't interpret it in a negative way: your interpretation is creating fear in you. You have missed a beautiful moment twice; now whenever it comes, don't miss it! Wait with deep passion, longing, with hope that it comes again. Prepare yourself so that next time when it comes you will be able to rejoice and you will relax into it. it is a promise that you are going to gain tremendously out of it.
Only out fo the zero experience does the experience of the total arise. Only by annihilating yourself utterly do you become capable of receiving god. In that zero you become a womb and in that womb god can disappear.
Right now everybody is so full of himself or herself that there is no space inside; all rubbish, rotten furniture is there. Empty yourself!
And from this very moment start preparing yourself; it is going to come some day. You must have worked for it your past life, otherwise it doesn't come that way; it is not available so easily -- it becomes available after great effort. You must have worked knowingly, unknowingly; you must have earned it. So now when the moment to harvest has come, you are missing it.
I am with you. That is the whole meaning of sannyas: in life, in death, I am with you! I will take care.... Next time simply relax and go into it.
This is the very door we are seeking. This is the very door through which I am trying to bring as many people as possible. I am persuading as many people as possible to enter into this door.
It is natural to be afraid so I am not condemning; it is natural. Everybody becomes afraid for the first time but there is no need to be afraid. Though the fear is natural, it is unwanted -- drop it!
Shunyadeva -- it means god of the zero.
And shunya
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