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LAWYER, `HE WILL PERHAPS ASSUME THAT THIS IS A CORPSE, AND HE MAY THROW SOME MONEY TOWARDS MY BURIAL -- AND I WILL GIVE YOU A SHARE OF IT.'
Now it becomes a struggle. The lawyer is trying in every way to defeat the Master so he can say, `Yes -- even you were deceived.' He is trying to have the upper hand on the Master so he can say, `You are not a higher consciousness than me.' This happens to every disciple. The disciple tries in every way with the Master to make in every way sure that `is he really higher than me?' And the disciple tries in every way to prove that `he is not higher than me, he is just like me.' Then your ego can grow more if you can come to a point and realize that `the Master is not higher than me -- he is just like me.' Then your ego is strengthened. Rather than dying through the Master, you have revived your dying ego, again you have supplied blood to it.
Every disciple when he comes to a Master is entering into a conflict. The Master will try to kill your ego completely, utterly. And you will try to save it; not only save it, but feed it, make it more vital, stronger. A disciple comes for certain reasons to a Master, and a Master exists for some other reasons. A disciple comes tattered, sad, because in life he couldn't fulfill his ego. Now he is moving towards the other world; maybe there he can fulfill his ego: he can become a great sannyasin; he can become the topmost Enlightened man in the world; he can become this and that. The world has failed; now he tries the other world: maybe he can find some anchor and save his ego.
You come for a wrong reason to a Master. This is natural -- you are wrong, how can you come for right reasons to a Master? You have to come for wrong reasons. And the Master exists for absolutely different reasons. He attracts you, he takes you closer and closer, just to kill you -- and to kill you so utterly that the very seed of the ego is burnt. That is what Patanjali calls nirbeej samadhi: when the seed is so absolutely burnt that whatsoever you do with the seed, now no sprout can come out of it.
The Master is a fire. The Master is a death.
FINALLY THE LAWYER FOUND AN UNDERTAKER
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